So...I think I left off when I was going to the beach with Ruben.
That was last Tuesday?..
I'll start there.
OHHH what a day that was..
While i'm typing this, im going to make note of all the reasons why I think he is not to be trusted, and the reasons why I think hes just not that into me. He says he really likes me, but come on. Anyone can say that!! i guess its a matter of ME being able to see if theyre lying or not.. and this case i think hes just fxing around.
So the night before we were going to go to the beach, he texts be with some strait up bullshit talking about ''Hey, is it okay if my friend Ramon tags along?"
yeah, he asked if a guy friend could tag along. [reason 1!!!!!! this is some strait up BULL!!]
It wouldn't have even been a big deal but the fact that it was the same guy who asked if.......OH how do i even begin to explain what happened.
Flash back. i think ive already written about this before, but i'll put it again just in case.
- Ruben and I had like a little rendezvous thing at Lake Eola on the friday before the beach...it was Friday the 13 I believe...
I was SERIOUSLY craving a smoothie from Panera's, but they were closed, so we ended up driving to Walgreens to get gummy bears and ting. on Bumby and 50.
As we're getting out of the car, Ruby said "oh, my friend Ramon is working. you'll get to meet him." [this boy is so fxing sketchy, i swear.]
So we walk into walgreens and he waves to his friend, says "this is Ramon." and Ramons DUMB ass says "Oh, nice to meet you!! MONICA, right??"
i was pissed as hell!! [reason 2! that means hes been talking about this monica girl to his friends, and it feels like im just the chick on the side that just/.................Arrggggghhhhhh *#@#$)(* this makes me very upset.]
monica is a friend of ruby;s i guess theyve known eachother since who knows how long, and supposedly she went to middle school with us as well.
i dont give a SHIEEEttttttT!!! muhfxa called me monica? and then to cover it up, the dumbass says "OH, RUBEN THIS ISNT YOUR SISTER, MONICA??"
NO BITCH!!!!! im BLACK! do i LOOK SPANISH TO YOU ?!!!!!!!!!
some strait bull. im tellin you. just some nonsense.
and that is who 'ramon' is.
i dont like him.
So RUben asks if this guy could tag along. i was pissed. he was like.."he hasnt been to a beach in florida yet."
why is that a problem of mine?
but ayo insisted "dont be the girl that didnt want his friends around."
so i agreed.
the beach trip was my idea.
i told him "if you wanted a day out with the guys, you could have just told me =] its okay, have fun with ramon.''
and hes like he just wanted to tag along, if you dont want to come, then dont'' [reason 3]
he tried to make the whole situation look like I was the one tagging along with HIM and his friend! but it was MY IDEA IN THE FIRST PLACEE!!!
and then when i met up with him tuesday morning, I was like, "its so nice to be meeting you today. to go to the beach. =]"
and I was like..."im going to see youre apartment!"
and he says.
"Oh, we're at Kristi's apartment. she works at walgreens too."
so, he made it so 6 of his friends from walgreens were going too.
He's lucky that I liked the people who went. especially the Kristi chick, she was tight. =]
BUT NOT THAt DUMBASS RAMON.
all in all, it was a fun day,
but that was pretty messed up that he tried to make me uncomfortable by taking me and putting me in an unfamiliar place. with all of HIS friends. i made the best of the situation, and i made sure to have fun.
I did have fun, lots of fun.
I feel like he was TRYING me.
but it backfired.
he gets mad when i dont text him right back...so we got in a lil fight and just the things he was saying was just ridiculous
i wont put all of it on blast but, he acts like a lil GIRL on highschool drama.
i dont like it...
i dont mean to be dissing him or anything because i like him, but i'm used to my men being MEN you know?
i feel like i'm more masculine than he is.
i dont like it..
is it still worth getting to know him? maybe as a friend but i dont know..... at this point i really dont. my patience is wearing thin. maybe is just
but you know who i'm reallyyyyyyy starting to fall for?
my mom would kill me if we were together.
but Nate is soo funny and he understands me!! we could just sit and talk for hours and just laugh and LOL
i just love being with him!!!!!
and he always makes time for me, and .makes me feel special and important..like i'm the only one he has eyes for. even when we chill with a bunch of people and theres girls that are thirsty for him, i dont even feel threatened because he makes me feel secure in his feelings for me.
i just feel like im not giving ruben a chance though
wait, but i AM!!!!!! HE is the one just not showing me that he's into me enough.
i'll give him 1 more week, if not, i'm cutting him off and i'm staying with Nate.
playing the field?
anyway home life is good, the dogs are good, im home alone right now composing and listening to some electro
i'm thinking about going to BackBooth tonight with Amanda, because ayo really pissed me off 2 days ago, so im taking a lil break away from her.
i'll invite some other girls along so we can jsut chill and maybe we can all pregame at Nate's =]
I'll write about the HORRIBLE time i had at disney with Ayo a little bit later.
but for now, this is enough, i have to get back to my piece.
me an my lil composer self. lol